WOW

Can't really say anything but it- wow. I would like to think I have a rather vivid imagination and there are definitely scenarios I imagined when it comes to breaking me out of the normal day-to-day that I am sure we all encounter if not just a bit. I did not, however imagine this as even a remote option. I was doing the regular cooking on my job when before I know it am filled with a surge of warmth and happiness as I find both my brothers in my arms. It seems a common trend in my family to plan this grandiose surprises for each other. It seems that this one has topped them all (even though there is rather significant other one involving my mom and my brother- details available upon request). So the set-up story to this one is that both my younger brothers have decided to move to B.C. The younger one (Jordan) did so without telling me and has been living in Abbotsford for a month, this is of course quite cunning of him if you ask my opinion. The older, younger brother (Josh) just drove out (slowly albeit) from Nova Scotia. Of course they did not inform me of these plans because the idea was to surprise me on my birthday and oh what a surprise it was. It is not only wonderful to see family after so long of fighting the solo battle but to know that they are living close surpasses my wildest expectations. The idea that we three are close to each other and that we are able to strengthen the brotherly bonds that hasn't really been an option for years now is just wonderful. I couldn't ask for more in my life right now also considering I felt lacking in the aspect of people that actually know me in my world. While it is quite thriling and new to be around people that have jut met me for the first time it can get tiring because it is still a lot of groundwork to lay and it is nice to be able to sit back every now and then and be with someone who knows who you are. On that note I am greatly anticipating my trip to SK in the first week of November. It will be a nice step into the past- hopefully. Life still finds me a complete failure in the romantic relationships relay. Getting really fucking tierd of failing here- sometimes I know I am walking into things the wrong way but then every now and then I try my damndest to work on things to take the right steps- to love passionately and still I encounter rejection-its taking a lot of courage and ideas to keep me from waning to give up completely. Well the power is flickering off and on so I should post this before elctriity dies. Love- Nat